Monday, April 21, 2014

Lindsay Lohan reveals she had miscarriage in OWN reality show finale

  • Troubled star, 27, did not identify father of child   

  • It comes week after she admitted she was 'humiliated' by the release of her 'sex list'    

  • After finale aired on Sunday her mother Dina tweeted: 'Oprah call me'

By Mike Larkin

Lindsay Lohan revealed she had a miscarriage in the finale of her reality show.

The Mean Girls star said it was the reason she took a couple of weeks off from filming the programme for Oprah Winfrey's OWN network.

The 27-year-old had previously hit the headlines for the break, which held up production on Lindsay.

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Emotional: Tearful Lindsay Lohan admitted she had a miscarriage on the finale of her OWN show

Emotional: Tearful Lindsay Lohan admitted she had a miscarriage on the finale of her OWN show

She said: 'No one knows this, I had a miscarriage for those two weeks that I took off. It's a very long story.'

Lindsay did not reveal the identity of the father when she made the confession.

In a recently filmed interview she was asked what it is like to watch her own series, she admitted it was difficult, especially as people were frustrated she took a break from filming.

Lindsay said: ''That's why on the show when it says she doesn't want to come down, I couldn't move, I was sick. Mentally, that messes with you.

'Watching this series, I just know how I felt at that moment and I can relate to that girl, which sounds kind of crazy, but I'm like, "Oh my god, this is really sad. Who's helping her?"

! ''There was a lot going on in my life then. I cried so many times watching it. Because I don't see it as me - it's strange. It's weird.'

Wiping away her tears: The emotional reality television personality was struggling to hold it together

Wiping away her tears: The emotional reality television personality was struggling to hold it together

Smiling through the heartbreak: She found the strength to smirk as she spoke on the show

Smiling through the heartbreak: She found the strength to smirk as she spoke on the show

It was a dramatic ending to the little-watched series, which began four days after she left rehab last summer, which was her sixth stay in six years, until now. 

It remains to be seen whether there will be an anti-Oprah backlash over the development, especially as OWN teased about her 'announcement' in the finale episode trailer.

She has already been criticised for letting the series air in the first place.

Lindsay's mother Dina had a simple response on Twitter, which she has since deleted, writing: 'Oprah call me.'

The Herbie Fully Loaded actress then spoke to the producers, who she said 'love this **** when I cry,' about her addiction.

She said: 'Even if it's not my intention to lose everything I'm now working for, that's what this addition will do to me.

''It's a really f***ed up disease and it's really scary.'

Later, she added: 'It's f***ing terrifying.'

Mental battle: She also discussed how difficult she was finding it to remain on the wagon after rehab

Mental battle: She also discussed how difficult she was finding it to remain on the wagon after rehab

High spirits: She was still able to share some jokes with the show's producers during the heart-to-heart

High spirits: She was still able to share some jokes with the show's producers during the heart-to-heart

But she then proved that she is at least in part in denial as she insisted: 'I may have addictions to certain things in life, but I'm not essentially you're typical addict - that's not who I am, I'm not the kind of person.

'I know the difference between right and wrong, it's stupid and idiotic, and what's good and bad. I know that, I was raised well by my parents, and I've seen it.'

She instead claimed that she was the person helping others get off drugs rather than being the main person needing the help.

'There are drugs that people say I've done that I've never touched, that I know people that have down that,' she insisted. 'I've tried to help a lot of people to get away from that s**t, and to find a balance in life - to be OK with just being OK.'

She also insisted that the key move in her life was when when she 'worked with a shaman' and 'did a cleanse'.

Living the high life: Lindsay still found time to attend some showbiz parties on the show's final episode

Living the high life: Lindsay still found time to attend some showbiz parties on the show's final episode

Movers and shakers: She may be out of rehab but the one-time movie star is not slowing down

Movers and shakers: She may be out of rehab but the one-time movie star is not slowing down

'It was really intense - I saw my whole life in front of me,' she said. 'I saw myself die - it was insane. I saw myself being born.

'I had to let go of past things that I was trying to hold on to that were darkening my life.

'I feel different ever since then. Just being OK with the wreckage of my past, and letting go and being fresh,' she said, admitting she also 'blocked so many people on my phone' who she realized were bad influences.'

As made headlines last week, Lindsay also opened up about her personal sex list being made public - and now she says she is convinced she knows who is responsible and has already cut them out of her life.

Leaked: The list of famous men Lindsay has allegedly slept with appeared in InTouch Weekly in early March

Leaked: The list of famous men Lindsay has allegedly slept with appeared in InTouch Weekly in early March

In bed with Lindsay: Viewers were given a rare peek into the star's bedroom during the show, where she moped about the fact the list had been leaked

In bed with Lindsay: Viewers were given a rare peek into the star's bedroom during the show, where she moped about the fact the list had been leaked

She penned penned a list of 36 of her best known lover, with the roll call features the names of literally dozens of celebrity conquests including Adam Levine, Zac Efron, Justin Timberlake and Joaquin Phoenix.

Other big names on the list included Colin Farrell, American Horror Story star Evan Peters and her ex-boyfriend Wilmer Valderrama, with all surely choking on their cornflakes when they discovered the document has been leaked.

And in a case of art imitating life, she even had a fling with Jamie Dornan, who is starring as Christian Grey in forthcoming S&M erotic romance 50 Shades Of Grey.

Her colourful love life has also seen her have a well publicised affair with lesbian DJ Samantha Ronson, bed professional reality television personality Calum Best and she was even said to have had a sexua! l relationship with Bruce Willis.

'I'm pretty sure I know who it is, unfortunately, and they're not a part of my life at all anymore,' she said, without naming names.

Lovely bubbly: The actress was surrounded by temptation as viewers saw behind the scenes of her world

Lovely bubbly: The actress was surrounded by temptation as viewers saw behind the scenes of her world

Phone fun: But she seemed more intent on taking photos on her mobile than quaffing champagne

Phone fun: But she seemed more intent on taking photos on her mobile than quaffing champagne

'That is a desperate human being and I hope they find some peace. Because anyone that's willing to do that to someone else is really f***ed up in the head, and I don't want that in my life.'

She also insisted that her tears were more for the men on the list who are in relationships that could be damaged by the list as opposed to her own pain at the public admission.

'I don't care about me in that situation - I care about the people that are involved with other people. Because it's really unfortunate and disrespectful,' she said.

She said her real shock is that the list was only written as part of her recovery.

'That was part of my Betty Ford. It's step number five, or number eight. It's your sexual inventory and that was in my Betty Ford book, so that was really personal to my sponsor,' she said. 'You write that for your sponsor.

'When I was moving and I was in the Beverly Hills Hotel there  were two people there that helped me move. So someone took a photo. Took that photo and released that.

Living the life: She still seems to be very popular with celebrity photographers wherever she goes

Living the life: She still seems to be very popular with celebrity photographers wherever she goes

Enjoying herself: She seemed to revel in telling viewers on the little-watched programme whats she was up to

Enjoying herself: She seemed to revel in telling viewers on the little-watched programme whats she was up to

'And that's really - that's something sacred to me. That's not something that I'd show anyone, besides from my sponsor, who's also a very well known person.

'The fact that happened was not only humiliating, but just mean - it was mean spirited for someone to do that.'

But as the series came to an end, the starlet insisted things were looking u for her, with a new movie, Inconceivable, due to film soon, and the show showing her in talks trying t get a multi-million dollar deal for her memoir.

'I'm in a good place and I don't want to mess with that,' she said. 'Because it feels good, and I'm happy.

'So yeah - thank you,' she told the crew.

Lindsay also justified still going out re! gularly bar-hopping, insisting she can control friends drinking around her.

Model worker: She is still clearly in demand for photo shoots if this is any indication

Model worker: She is still clearly in demand for photo shoots if this is any indication

Lounging around: The canny old pro worked her magic for the photographers

Lounging around: The canny old pro worked her magic for the photographers

'I feel OK being around people that drink,' she said. 'And I have friends that are not sober.
'People are going to drink when they're around me - that's not gonna not be a part of my life. My friends are allowed to, you know, have drinks.

'It doesn't mean that you're a bad person - it doesn't mean that you're a bad influence.

'They wouldn't be around me drinking if they knew I couldn't handle it. And that's how I know they're my friends.'

In the finale, Lindsay was mostly on her best behavior as she went through more modeling shoots, filming a Funny Or Die spot, and traveling to Sundance as well as Shangai for a fashion awards ceremony.

She was also shown arriving at a concert at Madison Square Garde! n to introduce Miley Cyrus - embarrassingly having to get her assistant to beg Miley's people to respond to her tweets when Miley did not meet with her or answer her messages before the show.

In control? The infamous former child star insists she is in charge when she goes out with friends

In control? The infamous former child star insists she is in charge when she goes out with friends

That's more like it: She was also shown enjoying time in more sedate restaurants

That's more like it: She was also shown enjoying time in more sedate restaurants

She had only one falling out during the finale - with her hard-suffering personal assistant Matt Harrell, who was seen packing his bags and moving back to LA for six weeks.

'The last seven moths working with Lindsay has been like riding an insane horse through a burning stable,' he laughed, before quickly insisting: 'No, I'm kidding. It's great. She's awesome.'

He explained at the time: 'Currently my working relationship with Lindsay is OK. It's complicated, which I can't really discuss because of a confidentiality agreement. And it's between Lindsay and I.'But I'm going back to LA for a little while and see where we go from there.'

He insisted the move was not over her failing to pay him - as some stories claimed - and was soon seen back with her in NYC to help prepare ! for the launch of the series.

'Lindsay called me up, she asked me to help her out this week. I flew all night and I'm here ready to rock and roll,' he said.

In demand: Reporters were always approaching her for quotes as she went about her travels

In demand: Reporters were always approaching her for quotes as she went about her travels

Begging for recognition: She and her assistants had to plead with Miley Cyrus' handlers when the singer refused to respond to her

Begging for recognition: She and her assistants had to plead with Miley Cyrus' handlers when the singer refused to respond to her

Lindsay also joked about how she may let her worst side out again as she faced being kicked out of her apartment as the owner planned to sell.

'I don't think anybody's going to buy it - I'll scare them away,' she laughed. I have ideas.

'I could just use my name to use as my benefit. Like, "Have Lindsay Lohan *** this place up".'

And despite her complaints of being photographed and recognized, the actress admitted that she has wanted fame ever since was a young girl playing with her dolls.

'I've always wanted that and craved that circus of attention to some extent,' she admitted.
'It's something I've always strived to have.'

It paid off: The pop culture favourite went to concert at Madison Square Garden to introduce Miley Cyrus

It paid off: The pop culture favourite went to concert at Madison Square Garden to introduce Miley Cyrus

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